my favourite sentences...


You can hide memory, but you can't erase the history that produced them.

It was sad to see what used to be so fundamental to our lives fade away and disappear in front of our own eyes.

Words don't come out when you're deeply hurt. That's why people keep silent and give no explanation. Yet, Murakami once wrote in his novel, 1Q84, "If you can't understand without an explanation, you can't understand with an explanation." Sometimes, people tend to not wanting to understand things instead of wanting to understand things. In short, they tend to ignore the possibility of trying to understand things.

do you know what makes life interesting?
--> it's interesting because we don't know what the future holds for us. don't blame the fate. we decide our fate, it's our choice. we can't choose where to be born, but we can certainly choose the way we live our life...

the life is yours, why bother asking other people to paint it for you?...

when we're small our word has never been counted; when we're big every word has always been counted...

i may not be able to wait thirteen months for you, nor until you are twenty-five, but i can wait for you a lifetime -- Under the Hawthorn Tree by Ai Mi

waiting, though one minute, it's still unbearable...

death doesn't mean that we are no longer existing. death just means a move to another world...

why can parents wholeheartedly sacrifice everything for the happiness of their children, even their life? but why can't their children, whom they give birth to, do the same thing to them? what power is it that encourages them to do so?....

the thing i'm most afraid of is ME. of not knowing what i'm going to do. of not knowing what i'm doing right now.

people always meet new friends. but they should not forget their old friends. because without your old friends we don't have a chance to meet new friends. the memories with our friends will be there forever in our brain. we can't omit it though time passes.

Tuesday, March 28, 2023

I feel your smell lingering in the air

You might wonder why I love the smell of jasmine flowers the most of all other flowers. You might wonder why I love jasmine tea the most of all other tea flavors. You might wonder why I love anything, or simply everything, related to jasmine.

The answer is simple. I feel you beside me every time I feel the smell of jasmine. I feel your warmth when I sip a mouthful of hot jasmine tea. I feel your presence when I carry a handful of jasmine flowers in my palm. I feel secured. I feel at peace. I feel at ease. I feel you. I feel happiness.

Our stories, or I should put it 'our memories,' began like this and ended like this, and please don't ask me how our stories began and ended, for you know clearly without my recollections.

What you don't know is my life after you're gone. So, you should know that I feel your smell lingering in the air every time the smell of jasmine passes through the wind to my nose. I then turn around to check if I would, though I know clearly that I will not, see you again. At that moment, the surroundings become deadly silent. The barking dogs turn mute. The pale moon hides herself behind the cloud. The wind suddenly stops blowing. The smell suddenly disappears. Everything, or maybe I imagine it, stands still except me driving under the dim light shone by an almost broken street lamp and tears welling up in my eyes because I fully understand that no one will be waiting for me at home. No one will be comforting me when I rest on the couches in the darkness. No one...