Ten Years

Time flies. Ten years can easily pass in the blink of an eye. Without us knowing it, everything has gone by and left.

Ten years ago you made my first lover. You made me realise what love was, how happy felt, how hurt was, how selfish was, how jealousy was, how to let go, how to love, how to lie, how to talk, how to cry, how to act, how childish was, and many other how(s), and all of them were my first time. It was the first transition of my life, from a carefree teenage and single boy to an adult who had to deal with other person's feelings as well as my own feelings.

I do agree with a saying that "first love is the most memorable." You're always in my mind. Your face, your smile, your tears, your worried wrinkles, your lip, your hair, your staring eyes, and your touch have registered and recorded in my head. Your memory has never once faded away from my mind, never once left my breath, even ten years after. I don't know why I can't get rid of it. Vivid memory about us are always there. I don't need to try very hard to recall about our used-to-do things, used-to-go places, used-to-make promises, used-to-drive roads, to name a few. Your favourite songs has always remained in my favourite playlist. As a result, I can't remember well about other lovers, but you. Their faces become blurry to me, including their names.

Ten years later, I want to meet you again and make you my friend. Yet, I don't know if you want the same things as I want. You may hate me for the rest of your life or you may have forgotten me altogether. You may move on with your life, and me too, I move on with my life. However, I have never tried to forget you or pretend not to know you because I can't hide the fact that we were once lovebirds, we were once each other's shadow. You have become part of my life, part of my experience. Your show has shaped my present life, has shaped who I now am. Your love has contributed to how I see love and how I should love.

How many ten-year time do we have in our life?!!!

Ten Years by Eason Chen