my favourite sentences...


You can hide memory, but you can't erase the history that produced them.

It was sad to see what used to be so fundamental to our lives fade away and disappear in front of our own eyes.

Words don't come out when you're deeply hurt. That's why people keep silent and give no explanation. Yet, Murakami once wrote in his novel, 1Q84, "If you can't understand without an explanation, you can't understand with an explanation." Sometimes, people tend to not wanting to understand things instead of wanting to understand things. In short, they tend to ignore the possibility of trying to understand things.

do you know what makes life interesting?
--> it's interesting because we don't know what the future holds for us. don't blame the fate. we decide our fate, it's our choice. we can't choose where to be born, but we can certainly choose the way we live our life...

the life is yours, why bother asking other people to paint it for you?...

when we're small our word has never been counted; when we're big every word has always been counted...

i may not be able to wait thirteen months for you, nor until you are twenty-five, but i can wait for you a lifetime -- Under the Hawthorn Tree by Ai Mi

waiting, though one minute, it's still unbearable...

death doesn't mean that we are no longer existing. death just means a move to another world...

why can parents wholeheartedly sacrifice everything for the happiness of their children, even their life? but why can't their children, whom they give birth to, do the same thing to them? what power is it that encourages them to do so?....

the thing i'm most afraid of is ME. of not knowing what i'm going to do. of not knowing what i'm doing right now.

people always meet new friends. but they should not forget their old friends. because without your old friends we don't have a chance to meet new friends. the memories with our friends will be there forever in our brain. we can't omit it though time passes.

Friday, November 15, 2024

The last time I checked

My heart was trembling when I was running around looking for you as every passenger was waiting impatiently at the boat docking at the temporary pier.

My heart was pounding against my broken chest while I was catching my breath, running. My eyes were fixed on everyone I passed by. Though my eyes did not cry, but my heart did, calling for you to show up. Maybe at that moment, we might reunite. Yet, you did not show up. I had texted you and you did not bother to check your phone and reply. Under the hot sun, sweat rolled down just like my crying heart. I gave up, at that moment, I gave up looking for you. You might be back in the boating, sitting and mending your mood. God, I was so heartbreaking and relieved that you were safe, putting an ice-cold water bottle on your forehead to reduce the heat. I took deep breath as I catched my breath.

I got on the boat, remained calm, did not say anything that might be out of anger, and handed you the bandage for the cut on your index finger because of breaking your phone's protected screen. You did not talk to me and tossed the bandage I had asked from the tour guide for you earlier. You ignored me. I did not say anything. I did not want to make what already hot hotter. I did not talked to you for I wanted you to remain calm, and now we did not talk to each other.

How could you be so cruel, so determined? How could you be so focused on your own mood? Was taking photos more important than us spending time together at this island and making memories? How could you forget what was the meaning of planning this trip all together?

I was helpless to be left alone and maybe I was not good enough for a relationship after all. I need to think about my future plan again, a plan that I will enjoy alone eventually.

And now, the last time I checked we are no longer together.

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